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My practice has recently brought me into almost molecular contact with the body-mind impact of childhood emotional needs. It appears to me at this time that my practice is moving forward as I am able to re-experience the body-mind held experience of those emotional needs at a higher level of attention and in an environment of deeper compassion than was available at the time the wounding was experienced.
Its a good recap and necessary move, esp if working with the 'inner child.' I dont believe myself that any recap will be worth anything without delving into the inner child, but thats just me.
I see no other way around it. Without going through that experience, they will be driving my perceptions and behavior. The impulse is to stop my life, go off to retreat and deal with it. With my work and other obligations that isn't possible, but I am slowly decreasing my work commitments in order to have more time for practice. In some ways, I no longer fit in my work world. Fortunately, as a result of the growth that has already occurred, I am fitting more in my personal world.
Actually work world always fits we just may not 'see' it but we must keep our tonal tasks fluid as the nagual.
My question for our community is about the effects of this process of transformation on your life. Have you made big changes in your external commitments as a result of the process? Have you done extended periods of practice and how did that impact your process?
Made me into a whole nother woman, and my 'inner self' has been transformed. Things I deemed important are no longer important. The way I rank things in importance are not. Im attached to far less.
As well, what is your experience with contacting these unmet emotional needs? What practices have been helpful for you to heal these wounds?
Face them tonally and in dreaming as well, esp in dreaming cause this is where these things surface unfettered by our mind keeping them - thoughts associated with - will show in dreaming what further work may need to be done
I believe some teach that emotional needs will never be met. My experience is that our behavior is driven by them whether we like it or not. Somewhere between these two, we live our lives.
Thoughts??
There is a point where we can be more active than reactive emotionally. Many folks are reactive, warriors act, not react. That would be the difference, and I do believe we can give and receive emotion without being reactive or at the mercy of emotion.
